I’ve never been particularly good at making decisions. Not in the way that I’m constantly making poor choices, but more often than not, I’m so indecisive that the only way I can actually make a choice is by making a heat of the moment decision.

Joining Phi Mu Alpha Sinfonia was originally one of those decisions.

I knew which fraternity I wanted to join if I joined one, but I wasn’t really sure what to expect if I went ahead and joined.

But they made a good impression on me during Rush Week, and I decided to take a chance on them.

At first, I felt a little uncomfortable. I’ve never been particularly good at socializing, and I felt like my fellow probationary members were getting so much closer to the brothers than I was.

I worried that I wasn’t really becoming part of the family dynamic that frats are supposed to provide.

It also didn’t help that at the time I had a lot of things to worry about on my plate. I had to deal with dropping a class, doubting my choice of major, girl troubles and loneliness with a nice heaping serving of anxiety on top of that.

But that’s when things really turned around for me.

I can’t really go into detail here, but something happened that encouraged me to open up to my fraternity brothers, and I felt like I had a weight lifted off of me. I finally felt like I didn’t have to deal with my problems alone.

And so I turned to my fraternity brothers for help and support, which they were more than willing to provide.

I especially have to give a shout-out to my Fraternity Education Officer Seth, who helped me get through dropping a class and gave me the push I needed to decide to change my major.

This is what’s so great about joining a fraternity.

These guys gave me that support network I needed to stop worrying about life so much and take a moment to let my guard down.

Without having to worry about keeping my walls up, I finally could embrace life to its fullest.

These last two months since then have been some of the best months I’ve ever had.

I’ve grown so close with my brothers and even my friends outside of ՓMA. I’ve stepped up to the plate in my other clubs and even joined some new ones. I even got the nerve to ask my crush out with a little encouragement.