I'm a completely different person than i was last year at this time. A year changed me in more ways then one, and time has a way of doing that to people, and sadly so do experiences. Everyone changes over the course of time, but it's how you let yourself change is what's really important. Are you going to let time and experinces change you for the best, or perhaps the worst? That's something that you really have to ask yourself. That's something that will test you, and it is something that will change you forever.
Over the course of the year I have soared into more than I thought i'd accomplish, I've been broken far worse then I could have imagined. i've opened up, and I have built my walls sky high. I've laughed until my lungs hurt, I've cried until my body turned numb, I've loved myself and I've hated myself, but one thing I did do was find myself.
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This time last year I was in love, and today i'm trying to mend myself back together after a broken heart. This time last year I was so dependent on a man to make me happy and make me feel beautiful, but today I've learned to depend on me, and to love me more than anyone. I've changed.
This time last year I let friends push me around and make me their punching bag, and today I have lost friends who don't make me feel good about myself. I've learned to spend my time with people who make me a better person, who give the same effort I do, and to always remember my worth. I've changed.
This time last year I was struggling with body image and an eating disorder, and today I take baby steps to improve my health and my overall wellness. I've learned the number on the scale doesn't define me and that I am worth more than my weight. I've changed.
This time last year I wouldn't experience adventures and new things out of anxiety, but today I attend every party I can get my hands on, I've grasped new experiences, traveled to places I've dreamt of and I do not let my anxiety hold me back from anything in this world. I've changed.
In a year I found love, I've been heartbroken, I've made friends and have lost some. I've cried, I've laughed, I've danced and I've lived. In the course of a year, my life changed, I've changed. Time has a way of doing that to people. Time changes people — sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse. It's up to you how it will change you. This past year has been one of my worst struggles but also one of my biggest blessings. It has made me into the woman I am today, and it has made me a stronger, more balanced soul then i could have ever imagine.
I've changed, and that's OK. I've changed into a person that no longer feels the need to prove herself to anybody. I've changed, and I will thank this past year over and over and over again.
Sure sometimes when I'm laying in bed, I think back to this time last year and wonder how I'd be if I were still in love, or if I was still friends with those people. Hell, I even cry because I miss them so much. But I know I'm where I'm supposed to be, I know I'm who I'm supposed to be and my story isn't even halfway over yet. I'm just going through the twists and turns of life, and I'll continue to change every year, and I'll make sure it's for the better.
