If you're waiting for a sign, here it is:
I know you're thinking that maybe, if you just wait a little longer, things will change. Maybe he'll open his eyes and see that you're the one he needs in his life. Maybe this time will be different if you just keep fighting for it. Or... maybe it won't, and you'll just keep going around in circles and letting him break your heart over and over again.
You probably don't want to hear this, but it's time for you to let him go.
How long have you been waiting for him to start acting like he cares? How many second chances have you given him after he broke his promises or ditched you just because 'something better' came along? How many times have you excused for his actions because you didn't want anyone to know just how much of an asshole he can be when he's angry?
The amount of effort that he puts forth will show you what role he wants to play in your life. He's not actually busy 24/7, and if he wants to be with you, he'll find a way to make time for you. Promises and intentions mean nothing if he's not willing to make any sacrifices.
After a while, it gets old to be constantly disappointed. Second chances become third, fourth, and fifth chances, and eventually, you just have to let it go. He has no intention of changing. I mean, why should he? You do everything in your power to make him happy while you let him walk all over you because you don't want to make him mad and risk losing his attention.
I bet you never once thought that you would fall for a boy who only calls when he's drunk and wants you to come over, a boy who's constantly being posted as some other girl's "man crush Monday" even though "it doesn't mean anything," or a boy who has no problem updating his Snapchat story while your text sits unread in his inbox. When you were a little girl, dreaming about your prince charming, is this the type of guy that you imagined?
You can't force him to change just because you see some potential in him. You can't force him to keep his promises, tell you the truth, or see how special you are if he doesn't want to. So this is what I want you to do. I want you to stop letting your fear of being lonely keep you away from the man that you actually deserve.
The right guy is out there somewhere and you're not even giving him a chance because you're stuck worrying about some crappy guy and trying not to check your social media outlets because you don't want to know who he's with while you're sitting at home by yourself.
The right guy will never treat you like you're being treated right now. He won't take you for granted just because he can. He'll make you smile even on your toughest days. He'll call you back because he genuinely wants to hear from you. He will stand by your side whether you're right or wrong. And most importantly, he'll never let you go to bed feeling like he doesn't want you.
So this is the part where you decide what you want. You can wait around and maybe you'll get lucky and he'll start being the man that you've always wanted him to be, or you can take my advice, and you can move on.
Keep reminding yourself that you deserve more than what you're being given right now.
Your time is way too precious to waste on someone who doesn't deserve it.
You deserve to be happy, and if you keep relying on this crappy guy to give you that, you'll be disappointed every time.
