I go through some days and just literally take them minute by minute. I do not know the outcome that will present itself to me at the end of that day. I do not know what kind of space I will be in mentally, emotionally, or spiritually at the end of the day. I just simply put one foot in front of the other and go from there. Lately there have been more days where my mood is something I cannot quite describe or put into words. I do not how to address it. I just know I feel like something is off. Some days are worse than others. And some days are better than others. It is all up to how I wake up each morning and the strength and the energy I have to give to each day.

There are constant frustrations that replay themselves in my head almost on a daily basis. I can for the most part keep them to myself and move about my days as best I can without anyone having the slightest clue what is happening mentally. Sometimes I can overlook them and go on with whatever I am doing. Some days I just cannot. Some days I have to wallow in the realization that there are some things missing from my life. Things that may not and should not be so trivial but I make them that way. I am 23 years old without a license or a car. Do you know how hard it is to have to depend on people all the time? To have to wait for people whenever you want or need to go somewhere? To some days have to just go without going to a certain place because you cannot physically do it yourself? That is one of the daily struggles I deal with.

I do not have my own place. Some 23 years old are still living at home and it is not an issue. Some have their own place. I am right in the middle. I am living at home and for some it may not seem like an immediate issue. But for this time in my life right now, I would love my own space. I would love my own one bedroom apartment that reflects my personality as a young adult. But financially that is something I cannot obtain at the moment.

I also struggle with the insecurities I naturally sometimes have as a female. It is i our nature to criticize ourselves and pick ourselves apart. It takes and is going to take a lot of work to be okay with self. Accepting what is for what it is and being okay with it. Not continuing to compare myself to others and uplift what is special and unique about myself is going to be a daily progress.

There are goals I have for myself. There are things I want to see happen for myself. There are wishes I want to see come to light. I just have to take my time and work as hard as I possibly can in every aspect to make sure they come true. The frustrations I have will turn into the strength I need to move forward with everything.

xoxo

"Remind yourself it's okay to not be okay. Break down, cry yourself to sleep. We all are imperfect human beings"