So many people have told me they are impressed that I have my life together and that I know exactly what I want. Having been surrounded by people who know exactly what they want in life, I find this incredibly inaccurate. I listen to others about their plans for the next few years and wonder how they do it. They are organized, put together and seem to know exactly what they want in life without a doubt. While I wish I could fit into that category, I am not one of those people. The future scares me. I am terrified of doing the wrong thing or making a bad choice. I get scared my life will fall apart if I do not have a set plan and know the exact path I am headed towards.
But this is a time of uncertainty.
If I have learned one thing this year, it's that it's okay to not know what you want. This gives you more freedom to go out and explore until you find what really fits -- what's really you. This lifestyle has helped me focus on discovering myself rather than focusing on what others perceive me to be. I seek adventure and do not become tied down to any commitments I am not ready for, I love openly and deeply.
The hardest part is realizing it's okay to not have it all together.
In all honesty, my experiences have taught me that we are not supposed to know exactly what we wantor tie ourselves down to one commitment. Living without ties, no connections keeping me from pursuing my dreams, no negative people influencing what you do or do not do.This truly is an amazing time that one should learn to embrace.You have to learn to love the messy life you lead before you can appreciate everything around you. Once you learn to let go it’s amazing how free you feel.
