So when thinking about your future, typically, you have your whole life planned out. Well sometimes that doesn't happen and it is completely OK. I know for myself, that this shock came early for me. I was scared and didn't want to think about what may or may not happen. The fact is that disappointment scares me the most and I couldn't face that reality. This moment in my life changed me...not for the worst, but for the better.
This unexpected reality happened my junior year at Saint Leo University. My major at that time was elementary education. I was dead set on this major since I was in seventh grade so I thought I was destined to become a teacher. So when the time came to take the several tests in order to be accredited and continue onto the program, stress and anxiety took over me. I couldn't perform under the pressure, and I knew that my time in this program would soon be over.
So during Christmas break, I was stressing hardcore and couldn't imagine my life without being a teacher. I like to inspire children, and I personally hope to believe that kids like to listen to me. When sitting at home, my father approached me and said "Megan, you need to think of a different career path and we need to figure this out soon". My heart sunk. Fear and disappointment arose. I didn't want to go back to school in the spring and tell all my friends that I simply couldn't do it and that I wasn't strong enough.
When rapidly googling "majors that are still able to work with children" there was a flickering of a lightbulb, like when Jimmy Neutron has a brain blast!
The burst of emotions was refreshing to feel after all the sadness that I have experienced within the past couple of months.
After this feeling of incredible joy and some slight relief, I knew what I wanted to do. This idea came with an extra year of school. Once again, I knew that I let the fear of striking out kept me from playing the game.
So, it ultimately came down to either swallowing my pride or making a rash decision that could either make me or break me.
One week before the spring semester was approaching, I had made the decision to switch my major to social work. This meant that I wouldn't be with my friends in those long days of classes that just seemed to drag on. I also wouldn't be in the field being a student teacher making lesson plans; and, I would be staying an extra year at Saint Leo.
I couldn't believe it! I dropped my old plans and switched over to something that is so new and foreign to me. Now, it was the time to face a new class schedule, new peers that I would be seeing daily, and telling my friends and roommates that I wouldn't be graduating in the Class of 2017.
However, by some divine inspiration or a miracle sent from higher powers, I realized that staying an extra year isn't the worst thing to happen to me. I could make more memories, meet new people, and run for president within my sorority! I guess you can say "if plan A didn't work, the alphabet has 25 more letters, so stay calm, cool and collected".
Overall, this eye opening experience changed me for the better. I have become more flexible with my life and I have seen what could happen if you put all your eggs in one basket. It is important to realize that life throws curve balls at you. You need to be headstrong and willing to run over the obstacles in order to finally realize what you are meant to accomplish.
So, I guess you can say that life moves on, no matter what. We may have to face our problems head on; but this only makes us stronger and gives us character. Life is a funny thing to wrap our heads around, but, we must stay confident and positive through the adjustments that might seem uncomfortable. Just breathe and realize that your family and friends will always be there for you when you are at your lowest point and can't get out of your funk... because the sun will come out tomorrow!