Every morning I make eggs. I wake up twenty minutes earlier than I need to just so I can throw some eggs in a pan as the water comes to a boil. I’m usually in a hurry, and sometimes the eggs crack because I carelessly throw them into the pan. So, part of the yoke leaks out into the hot water. Even though this sounds disgusting because it makes a stringy, loose yoke, I’m usually oddly okay with it. I’m okay with it because, typically, I’m in such a hurry that I don’t cook the boiled egg thoroughly, so the yoke is too runny to even eat. When the egg accidentally cracks, it helps the heat get inside. It helps the egg achieve the consistency I was looking for.
Just like my morning eggs, it’s okay for you to be “cracked” too.
I know I, just as much as so many others, always try to reach this seemingly unachievable point of perfection.
I want to be a good friend.
I want to be a good sister.
I want to be good to others.
I want to do well in activities I participate in.
I just want to do well.
And, no matter how hard I try, no matter how hard I will ever try, I will never be as “good” at anything as I wish or strive to be.
Here’s something cool though: it doesn’t matter. Nobody will ever reach the perfect consistency. It’s okay to be broken. It’s okay for you to be cracked. If you weren’t, how else would the light of Jesus get inside of you?
When Jesus walked this earth He didn’t seek those who had it all together. He didn’t go over to the rich man’s house. He didn’t invite the famous woman out for lunch. He didn’t befriend the most popular, put-together person He knew.
Jesus served, loved, and was a disciple to the broken, the sinners, the poor, the wretched.
So, do not for a single second feel worthless for not reaching that point of perfection. Do not ever feel any less because you can’t seem to get that grade, can’t stop messing up, or can’t seem to get this thing called “life” together. That’s what He is for. Seek him, and you will find peace. Seek Him, and you will find rest. Seek Him, and He will hold your hand to achieve His will. For you are merely on a single drop of paint in the vast portrait he has painted for your entire life. You have yet to see the end.
“Come to me all who are weak and burdened, and you will find rest.”
Matthew 11:28
He wants you so, so badly. He wants to hold your hand through this busy life. He is literally jealous for your time, love, and affection. Let Him hold you. If you were perfect, you wouldn't need Him. Allow yourself need to Him.
Just like my silly analogy about my morning eggs, it’s okay to be broken. It’s okay for you to be less than perfect. You were created that way. That’s why we need Jesus.