I've always been the type of person that was extremely anxious and cautious of everything around me. Being that I hate for people to see the weaker side of me, I've never acknowledged the fact that I have anxiety. I've never actually been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder, either but, after a recent panic attack, I knew that something was wrong.

I had an experience recently where I completely shut down over my everyday life. It was something so simple. In the end, all I had to do was sit down and think it out. At that very moment, It stressed me out, though. I didn't know what was going on because it had never been this bad. I've always had little moments where I'm anxious or nervous about something, but this time, it was so different. My body seemed to freeze for a minute. It was like I could feel my breath stop, I didn't know what to do. After crying for so long, I had to sit myself down and work through it. I honestly don't know what finally got me out of the trance I was in, but I'm so glad it happened.

I've always said how much I hate medication because it seems to sedate people. It's like seeing someone on antidepressants and their body is just lifelessly there. They have no emotion and no feelings. That's what I want to avoid. I don't want my body to just sit there. I actually did research and found some things to help it. One of the main things that helped me was writing. Writing out my feelings at that very moment got me through it. Another thing is counting every color around me. Every time I get anxious, nervous, or stressed about something, I always count every color I see and it truly helps me. I don't believe in medication for anxiety, stress or depression and I'm so glad I've found a way to cope with it, without medicine.