Remember when we were younger and we tried everything we could to get out of the trouble we were in? When we spilled something on the carpet or broke something then ran away, as if nothing had happened? Or when we did the exact opposite of what we were told by our parents? We would automatically deny their accusations towards us, even though we knew they were true, and then end up throwing a major fit.
We would misplace blame on our siblings, the pet(s), or the imaginary friends that would only ever come out when we were about to get yelled at? In the end, all of our actions revolved around lying, then the whole charade was up and we had to suffer the consequences. As we grew older we learned that lying was wrong, when we went through middle school and then onto high school, it seemed being called a liar was the worst thing possible that could happen.
Yet we lie to ourselves on a regular basis. I don’t think we mean to, it just comes naturally. When we say we’re going to do something and we don’t follow through due to our laziness or lack of motivation. Just this week I have fallen short myself and I will be the first one to say that I am guilty! We say we will, but then never get around to it or when the time comes we back out. Sometimes we say things just to boost our own confidence temporarily...emphasis on the temporarily. Some of the lies we tell ourselves may include:
1. I’m going to wake up early tomorrow morning
2. I am going to be productive today.
3. I am going to get ahead in my classes.
4. I can handle it.
5. I like the dining hall food.
6.I’m not addicted to Netflix.
7. It's Saturday, and I will get out of bed today!
8. I’m going to look decent today.
9. I’m not crying from stress.
10. I’m not going to take a nap today.
11. I don't need to go to class today.
12. I don’t need help, I’m an adult.
13. I’m going to work out today.
14. I don't need a relationship, I like being alone.
15. I know exactly what I’m doing.
Well, let me just throw this out there, as you can see above, all of these things are false. I am 100% positive that I will snooze my alarm tomorrow morning. The food in the dining hall is gross and at times questionably edible. I WILL take a nap because I stayed up most of last night doing all of the studying that I put off till the last minute. The time that I could put towards working out, I'll instead put towards eating Top Ramen because I am a broke college student. Last but certainly not least, I cannot handle it, I am struggling, I have no idea what I am doing, and I don’t want to be an adult! I am a 19 year old college student and I still want my mom to make me soup when I’m sick, hug me when I have a mental breakdown, do my laundry, and yell at my professors when they are being unreasonable!
However, I am in college. Even though I don't want to accept the inevitable fact that I am growing up I at least am aware that I do lie to myself, but I am not alone and it's okay. One day we will all figure it out and learn that lies are lies even when it is to ourselves, but until that time comes lets just stick to what we know. Back to focusing on what we want to believe instead of what we know and then all is back to normal.
