I never did admit this to you, maybe because I never knew-- until now--but-- I love you.

It may sound crazy, but it’s real and it’s how I feel. Yea, I know what we had is in the past and it was middle school shit so it was no big deal and wouldn’t last... That’s what they said and I don’t want to bring this up if you’re comfortably in bed w/ someone else.

But is that how you feel now?

If so, then I just want to let you know that in those years you helped me grow.

I’ve come to realize that in those years you were my best friend even when you had me in tears.

From laughing

From being up too late talking about our fears. And we did it together without knowing what we had was pure treasure.

In those years you had me in tears. From laughing too hard about nothing and everything that pierced our love struck ears.

In those years you had me in tears.

From being up too late talking about our fears, our future, how everything would play out and what it would do to us.

In those years you had me in tears,

about arguments that I would never hear from anyone,

Except for you.

I didn’t know what to do b/c you started calling me your boo and I was still stuck on whether I loved or hated you. In those years you had me in tears and even though I hated crying, (I still do) I found myself trying to stay with you, i found myself trying to stay in your life.

In those years you had me in tears.

I loved you,

and you couldn’t understand that THAT was my biggest fear.

- Christine Saint