It happened, after all that time spent saying we would be friends forever, it happened, we aren't friends at all. We don't talk anymore, people wouldn't even know we were ever friends unless they dug into old Instagram pictures.
I write this with not just one friend in mind, but many, and rather it was over a huge fight or because we simply grew apart these people that I pictured being around in my life forever are no longer around.
In high school teachers spent countless hours telling us how different college would be. They told us about class size and how professors are different and how living away from home can give you this new sense of freedom, but you have to be careful with it. No one ever told me how it would change me as a person, how the second you graduate from high school all those things you worked so hard for and all the things that felt like the end of the world... where they no longer matter.
If your friendship can within stand the miles and miles that separate you and your high school friends, you are one of the lucky ones because it didn't work that way for me. Soon the group messages vanished and the FaceTime calls just didn't happen. I stopped recognizing the friends in your Instagram pictures, I stopped clicking like on your Facebook statuses.
We had morphed into different people, people we swore we would never be, friends forever was what we said on graduation day, but it no longer applied.
I am sorry.
This doesn't all fall on you, it falls on both of us in a way.
Maybe if I would have tried a little harder, maybe if I would have reached out more often, maybe if I wouldn't have ignored you that time you called me back in September, maybe we wouldn't be here.
College changes people and that isn't always a bad thing, change can be good. I have seen myself change in both good and bad ways. I am not the same person I was the morning I graduated from high school, the second I left my small town and went to the big capital city and I changed.
I am thankful for the friends I have made in college, I am thankful for the friends I had in high school even if they didn't carry on into college. I have created amazing memories with so many people and though these people might not be a part of my life anymore I will forever be thankful.
Every person you meet rather they stay forever or only for a little while they shape you.
I am who I am because of these people.
