I have always been a happy go lucky kind of gal. One that rolls with the punches, looks at the bright side of things and tries oh so very hard not to dwell on the negatives in life. As of late though, the universe has been testing me. I am being faced with one bad thing after another to the point that I have stopped processing and I am just waiting to see what bad thing will happen next. It's summertime. I am home from school, trying to thrive and live my best life, but unable to because of circumstances beyond my control.

By no means do I consider myself to be a control f r e a k, but I think it would be nice to have at least some authority over what goes on in my life. I have realized what I do have control over though, is how I react to these said sudden changes. I am allowed to be angry. I am allowed to be sad. I am allowed to be annoyed and upset and confused.

Things do not always go the way you want them to.

Life throws you unexpected curveballs.

Shit happens, most of the time when you least expect it

How you deal with the unexpected twists and turns is what really matters.

I choose to not let these situations affect my day to day life. Sure I am still feeling the pain and annoyance on the inside, but I do not let it show on the outside. For right now I put on a smile and sooner or later my true happy and giddy self will return. I don't consider this to be fake of me or even unhealthy, but rather a protection mechanism. I can either choose to play a victim card and cry woe is me my life sucks, or push through and let my happiness shine from my soul. I choose the latter. I choose to surround myself with uplifting people who care about me. Who gives me the love and support I deserve through tough times. I choose to do things that make me happy. Hangout with my friends, go shopping, treat myself to Starbucks. Ultimately, I choose myself and doing whatever I can to adjust and make my life feel normal again.

I know I will be OK.

Even if I don't feel OK right now, everything is said to happen for a reason. I'm still waiting to hear what these reasons are, but I have a feeling I will never get the answers I really want to hear. Just because things aren't going my way at this very moment in time though doesn't mean it will be like this forever. You ultimately get what you give in this life, so I am giving just about all I've got at this point. So right now I will continue to spread the love and positivity I always have. Making other people's lives better, in turn, makes me feel better. Spreading happiness, in turn, makes me happy. These are just a couple minor setbacks on my long road to success. Remember, the comeback is always stronger than the setback, and I am beyond ready to make my come back.