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I'm Sorry

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If you're reading this, please just remember the past for a second. Remember 2014, and the fun we had together. Remember the times I took care of you in your dorm, remember the times we pulled all nighters in the CHHS together, remember all the memories we had at intramural games. Because ultimately, I want you to remember the good times, and not this crazy psycho I've been for the past year.

I'm sorry.

It's taken some time, but I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that I caused you heartache in our first month of being friends. I'm sorry that I dragged it out for a year. I know you don't believe me, but I'm sorry.

The life I had with you is in the past. It's weird. I can barely remember it. It's strange how I used to end my day talking on the phone with you. Now, the thought of you only comes up a couple times a week; versus every day.

I'm never gonna deny the fact that I loved you; because no matter how much you regret it now, I know at the time, how much you loved me too. On our best days, everything seemed perfect. But the days we would fight (which was almost every day) were the worst.

Not gonna lie, you brought out the worst in me, and I brought out the worst in you. We fought all the time, dragging our friends into it, and I'm sorry. I'm sorry for putting you through that pain. I'm sorry for telling you how much I cared about you. I'm sorry for dating a different guy the week after. I'm sorry for telling you "I don't want a long-distance relationship." I'm sorry I broke your heart. I'm sorry I forced you into some other girls arms. I'm sorry for going crazy the moment I heard you had "moved on."

I don't know if you believe me, nor does it really matter. I'm not looking for a response, I'm not looking for anything. All I want you to know is that I am sorry. I'm sorry for literally everything. I wish our friendship never escalated past that one group text. I wish you never became my best friend. I wish my pledge sister never told you how I really felt about you. But, it did. And I'm sorry.

Look, a lot of things happen in a year. Before, I thought it was just a month that I thought things in my life had changed. But now it's been a year, and everything and anything has changed. I don't know if it's because I just graduated, or maybe because it has been a year, but I truly am sorry.

You have been one of the few only people that I have ever felt my complete self around. So yes, I miss that; but I don't miss you. I'm not asking for your friendship back, because honestly, I don't think it would be healthy for us. I'm asking for your forgiveness. I will always love you, AS MY BEST FRIEND. So, sorry for everything.


But I'm not sorry for telling your girlfriend you cheated on her with me.

Also, shoutout to AJ & Gilbert. Y'all have been the realest fam.

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