So before this school semester ended I decided to change my major. I changed it from visual communication major to an advertising major. I was an art major for pretty much the entire semester, except for the last two days, and I learned a lot. Not only did I learn a lot about art, but I also learned a lot about myself. Like the fact that I don't want to be coming home at 6 am every night for the next 4 years. I also learned that I compare my art to others way too much and it was taking a toll on my mental health. And I didn't even know if I would make it into the visual communications program. At the end of this school year, I would've had to resubmit my portfolio and there was a possibility that I wouldn't have been accepted.

Since I was either 15 or 16 I thought I knew I wanted to be an art major. I wanted to do graphic design and photography. Then halfway through the semester, I would have breakdowns where I wasn't sure if that's what I actually wanted to do. Now at the time, this was very heartbreaking for me, because that's what I wanted to do for the longest time. I would cry because it felt like I was giving up and I don't like giving up. I especially didn't want to give up on this because I wanted to prove to the people who said that I couldn't make it as an art major; that I could.

However, when I changed my major and even now looking back at it, I don't care. Say what you want about me giving up, but in the long run, I will still be doing what I wanted to originally. I wanted to go into advertising or marketing with my visual communications degree. So, now, to look on the positive side I'm just taking a different path to get to where I want. Sure I may no longer be an art major and I won't get an art degree. I'll still be able to be creative in advertising and I know I will never stop making art. It's something that I'm still passionate about and it's a big stress reliever for me.

Now I'm still not exactly sure what I want to do in advertising, because I just switched my major and I haven't taken any classes for advertising yet. So I won't be able to answer that one question yet, but hopefully, I will be able to soon. I do hope that since changing my major I won't be staying up until 6 in the morning as much as I was. Or super late in general. I also don't really want to say that I think it will be an easier major, because all majors are hard in their own way. However, I do hope it won't take as much of a toll on my mental health as being an art major did.

I'm no longer an art major and I'm okay with that.