I’m 15…I feel sad and trapped, in my home, in my school, with my family and my friends, and in my relationship…like I don’t belong…in 15 years I’ll be 30.

I’m 18…I’m finally an adult…I feel free…I’m no longer in school, is this what life is about? I’m inlove I think, no one can tell me what to do!….in 12 years I’ll be 30.

I’m 21…life is odd…I met this man at this new years eve party but I’m pregnant with a little girl and her father in my middle school sweetheart…this will fix us right? This will make our relationship last right? I can’t wait to be a mom, I can’t wait to see him be a dad. This will fix us right?……in 9 years I’ll be 30.

I’m 24…it’s 2020, covid has made the world go crazy. I’m a mom now and I’m married to my middle school sweetheart but he’s mean to me. He drinks all the time, I think he’s cheating on me and has for a very long time….why can’t I stop thinking of that man I met at that New Year’s Eve party when I was 21? I should meet up with him, I talk to him all the time.. what would it hurt? My husband doesn’t notice me, he never has…..in 6 years I’ll be 30…I hope life gets better.

I’m 26 now…I had a son…we almost died when I had him. My husband acted like he cared but I don’t think he did. His drinking is so bad, I think I’m gonna end this 14 year relationship. I can’t stop thinking of that man I met at that New Year’s Eve party. I did meet up with him in 2020, and yet it’s 2022 and I can’t stop thinking about him…..I left my marriage, it was getting toxic, mentally and physically abusive. But im talking to that man….in 4 years I’ll be 30.

Now I’m 28….life is pretty great, at the end of this year I’ll be 29. I left that toxic marriage, and I’m in a relationship with that guy…I’m also pregnant with his daughter. I’m so happy I’m so inlove, my kids are happy and they love him…despite everything I have been through, I didn’t think I’d make this far…I didn’t think I’d be this happy…I feel like I finally belong, I feel at peace and safe in my home….this is what life is about….hey y’all I’m almost 30.