In the computer room of my childhood home, there's a closet that is basically equivalent to a junk drawer. On one of the shelves, there are about ten to fifteen used notebooks. If you were to pick one at random and open it up to a random page, I guarantee that you will see something along the lines of "Chapter One" in child-like handwriting. The story would probably last about a page, maybe two. But then, if you flip to another page, there will probably be another "Chapter One" heading on it.

That was my life as a child. I loved getting new notebooks and writing new stories within its confines. Most of the time, the stories ended up unfinished or didn't even make it past the first page. But I was always conjuring up something new. And that is still true to do this day.

I don't plan on becoming an author. My major isn't even English or Creative Writing or anything in that realm. But I am constantly writing. Which, honestly, kind of means I'm a little insane.

The reason I say that is because there isn't a single moment in my day where my brain isn't creating something. Maybe it's just dialogue between two characters. Maybe it's an opening monologue. Maybe it's an entire storyline. The possibilities are endless. The notes in my phone are full of random dialogue or even just quick sentences about how Character A did this to Character B. I have so many random documents on my laptop that are just random excerpts. I like to call them "Excerpts From a Book I'll Never Write." I even have full-blown, 200 page, stories saved on my computer, as well.

Every night before I go to bed, I swear my brain will come up with an entire story. There have been many times will I'll jolt out of my bed, grab my laptop, and write down exactly what I imagined. It's insane. No one is safe around me, either. And by that, I mean, there is a chance that if you're my friend, or even maybe just an acquittance, I have based a character on you at some point. Things that you have said to me or done to me are most likely included somewhere in my story, as either the plot or plot development.

Most people reading this probably think I'm insane. Which is completely fine, because as the title suggests, I'm perfectly aware of how crazy I sound. To make matters worse, I don't plan on ever doing anything with my writing. My writing is for my eyes only. It's a rarity that I let someone read something I've written, and I don't show just anyone my writing. But to me, it's therapeutic. It's my way of making sense of things that have happened to me. Or, it's my way escaping reality.

To put it nicely, it's my saving grace and I don't care if people think I'm crazy. Because I know I am.