To the person I miss most, there is so much I want to say. Ever since you left that day, my tears have gotten in the way. At times, I wish I could just wake up and have you still around.
My heart feels heavy everyday. Even though you are no longer here, I know you are looking down on me. You are my guardian angel. I hope I am making you proud. I just wish you got to see the woman I have become. I wish you were still around to hear about my latest moments.
I wish you got to see me walk to get my Associates Degree.
Life has felt so off without you around. I miss you Grandma Joyner. Every day that passes by, you are on my mind. If you were still here, I just wonder what you would say to me. What would you say about my break up? About my job? About what I want to do in my life? If only I could hear any of it.
It is off without you around at family gatherings and family parties. I miss coming to see you at your house all the time. I miss smelling what was baking inside the oven. I just wish I could see you one last time. I miss your hugs, your smile, your laugh, your funny comments, and you altogether. It still feels so unreal that you left us all.
I do wish that you never had that brain tumor. I wish that you were never sick. I miss you and will continue to everyday.
I will continue to make you proud and I know you are shining down on me all the time. I will keep you with me always inside my heart.
I love you, Grandma J!
Love,
Your Maddie Mae