Many people often talk about "if heaven had a phone," and I find myself doing the same. I always say if heaven had a phone I'd call my grandfathers and other loved ones every day. I whole heartedly believe this. However, talking about this stirs questions in my mind. I wonder silently why now that my grandfathers are gone I fantasize about calling them every single day. For 11 years I had the ability to call my Pop every day and for 17 years I had the ability to call my Grandpa every day, but I did not. This is because I took those precious lives for granted, something I regret every day. Looking back, I know I should have picked up the phone every night and called just to say I love you. I wish for nothing more than to do that now, even though I know very well that my grandfathers knew and know how much I love them.

If I had the chance, I would call my grandfathers and tell them everything. I would start every call with "I love you and I miss you." I'd update them on my day to day life and ask them how they are doing. I'd ask them about my other family members in heaven, what they're like and how they're doing. I'd joke around and have fun with them like we always used to but I'd also talk about serious things with them as well. I'd make sure they knew how important they are and were to me and how much I really miss them and love them, even though I already know they know. I'd make sure they know they are my heroes. I would thank them for teaching me the value of hard work but always demonstrating it. I would also make sure they know their sacrifices were not gone unnoticed and because of them, I know family always comes first. I'd make sure they know that they made a huge difference in my life.

When I think about these things I always come to the conclusion that heaven really does not need a phone. Although hearing both of my grandfathers voices and my other family members in heavens voices would be unbelievable; I know heaven does not need a phone. Heaven doesn't need a phone because I know my grandfathers are still with me. I know they watch my every move and they see it all. I know they watch me and are updated despite the fact that I do not physically see or hear them. I also feel as if I can still talk to my grandfathers and, call me crazy, I do talk to them. I believe that they can still hear me, they just can't speak back. Although I do wish I could hear their voices and have them respond, I feel as though I know what they would say or the advice they'd give me. I believe they occasionally send me signs that they are still here with me.