We all think of things we could have done differently while reminiscing our pasts. Maybe you definitely should not have worn that outfit, maybe you should have given that cute barista at the coffee shop your number, maybe there was a time you should have said something but instead, you stayed quiet. Whatever the case may be, there is at least one thing in everyone's past that they wish they would have done differently. If I could talk to my past self, warn her of what the future holds, and give her some advice, this is what I would have to say.
Past Alyssa,
Hey, it's me.
I'm going to tell you some things, and I need you to listen. We both know that that is not your strong suit, but just do it, okay?
First and foremost, stop winging your eyeliner everyday. Save your mad winging skills for special occasions. Stop plucking your eyebrows so thin. They are uneven. Also, stop wearing knee high socks. Sorry if it is hard to hear, but you do not look as cute in them as you think you do.
What I have to say next is going to be a little harder to stomach than my beauty tips.
Don't text him.
You know who I am talking about. He is not going to reply and that is going to ruin your life for, oh, I don't know, only the next nine months. He does not want to talk to you, he does not like you anymore, get over it. I promise that it is for the best. Stop taking specific routes to class so you can just so casually pass him the hallway, you are going to be late everyday. Stop crying and obsessing over which girls he follows on social media. Just stop all of it. He is not worth it. He is not even cute, and he is kind of a horrible person. You are going to find out that he had relations after you with someone you used to be close with, and it is going to feel like someone punched you in the gut, but you need to get over it. You can do it, and the quicker, the better. Besides, there is a much nicer, cuter, funnier guy sitting right behind you in la clase de Español, a boy that is not garbage. And guess what? You are going to give him your number, and you are going to fall in love with him, and everything is going to be great, I promise.
You are going to lose your best friend. When that happens, it is going to hurt really, really, badly. She was your best friend for half of your life, after all. Know that it is not your fault. It is neither of your faults. Try to stop being angry at her, try to stop forcing a friendship that is no longer there. She has changed, and you have, too, and that is fine. It's okay to cry, too, by the way.
And finally, Alyssa, I do not want to spoil too much, but the future has so many great things in store for you. You have an awesome boyfriend who loves you. You got accepted into your dream school. You have met some cool new friends in college. You declared a major that means the world to you. You finally started to get out of that dark place you were in and you realized that life is worth living and that everything is going to be okay, and you were right.
Everything is okay.
Everything is more than okay.
I am so proud of you. Right now, things are really looking up for you, kid.
Sincerely,
Present day Alyssa
