Do you ever feel like you forgot something about yourself, and then you remember how it made you feel and you have tried to rekindle the flame? I'm not talking about a relationship or anything that deals with another person. I'm just talking about you, yourself.
Like you lost a fundamental piece of the puzzle that is you. Maybe it was an old sport, hobby, or activity you used to do, or it could be something as basic as your favorite food as a child. No matter what it is, you need to search for it. Put it back in the foundation that makes you, you.
For me, this is something that I've hidden for years under things like stress and fear. I have somewhat lost the fact that I love to sing. Now, yes, I scream lyrics at the top of my lungs as I drive alone in my car, but I am talking about actually singing. I can't disclose whether I can sing well or not because I honestly don't know sometimes. Some people tell me that I can, and some people just don't comment.
Since I wasn't able to do this for so long, for reasons that only existed in my head, I have lost a lot of time that could've been spent actually doing something with my voice. I'm starting to find my way back to this piece of the puzzle, and I am pretty excited to see where I can go with it.
After attending a concert a few weeks ago, and then understanding how it made me feel, it was like a smack in the face. I just understood how I used to feel. Care-free, happy, like it was somewhat purposeful for me to sing. I can't describe exactly how I felt in the moment, but it was literally just like a smack in the face. It was something that just took me way back.
I can't remember feeling so in-tune with something. It was like I opened the curtains in a room where light didn't exist anymore. It opened something in me.
It's weird to think that sometimes you actually have to remember yourself. One would think that, since you occupy this body and can think with this mind, you would always know you and what's happening in your mind, body, and spirit. Oddly enough, it's not always the case. Humans have a tendency to get caught up in their fears and daily life that we sometimes forget to remember ourselves.
It's been a long time coming, but I am starting to remember me.
Can you remember you?