As I'm sitting at my grandparents, I look at my granddad. Alive but not living. If you've ever encountered someone with Alzheimer's you know exactly what I mean by my previous statement. This horrible disease has taken over my Pop-Pop, body and soul. But as I look at my grandmother, exhausted and stressed, she still has the same look of love that she always has had. The look that I saw in pictures from when they were young, the look that I've grown up seeing her give him. He doesn't know who she is anymore, and that breaks my heart, but whenever she's feeling down, she repeats to herself “for better or worse, and for sickness or in health."
I used to not understand how she does it, but then I fell in love myself. We aren't together right now, and maybe it's for the better, but that hasn't changed my feelings for him. We have been through anything and everything imaginable. We're adventurous together, we have fun, we joke, we laugh, we cry, but most importantly I love him more than he will ever know. I think he is in love with me based on his actions; he's just never has said it. And I think we will be together one day even if it's not some day soon because somehow, no matter what, we always find our way back to each other.
Not only do I want to spend the rest of my life with him, I feel as though the world wants us to as well. I've waited for this boy for 2 years, and I don't feel like I have wasted my time. I've had time to myself to mature and be emotionally ready for his love when he is ready to hand his heart over. He's recently dated someone and it was serious and she broke his heart. Most girls would have loved for this... looking at it from a revenge stand point, but not me. I never wanted him to hurt the way that he hurt me. I never wanted to see him completely shattered the way that I was when we ended things.
The thing is, my grandmother fell in love. She promised to always love and cherish my grandfather who at one time could actually love her in return. I'm not married to the guy that I have been in love with for 2 years, but when I gave him my heart, I personally made a promise to never take him for granted. So this is the letter to the guy that I am in love with. If you happen to read this, you'll know it's about you. I never stopped loving you. I might have tried to stop thinking about you for a little (unsuccessfully), while you explored other relationships, but I will always love you. One day I hope to grow old with you and continue to love you no matter the circumstance just as though my grandparents have done.
