We all don't want to be "that" girlfriend,

Yet here I am.

It's not out of obsession or maliciousness,

just out of love.

At one point in our lives,

in one relationship or another,

we can all relate to this.

I hate when you leave me

To go have fun with your friends

I hate that I just wrote that

Because that's clingy and uncalled for

I don't want to be that girlfriend

I would hate anyone like that

Hence the reason I hate myself

I can't help myself

I can't stop myself

I can't control myself

This horrible emotion takes over

And then I find myself crying,

And missing you

I hate that I miss you

Your laugh, your voice, your touch

I just... miss you

And I hate that

I hate that I get this way

You know the way

The way when you spend all day with someone

And as soon as they leave

It's like your whole world is gone

I don't hate you

I could never hate you

I just hate myself for feeling this way

I hate myself for not being stronger

I hate this long-distance thing

I want you near me

I want to hear your calm voice

I want to feel your smooth skin

I just want you

I want you with me, to cuddle me

To kiss me, to hold me

To love me

So I don't hate you

I love you more than anything and anyone

I hate myself.

The only thing worse than not being able to have you

is the fact that I'm not able to handle it.

I do not mean to be a clinger,

but I simply cannot help myself.

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