Dear Future husband,
I’m so sorry, but I will never be able to love you like I want to.
I am broken inside, and I can’t make you pick up the pieces because there are way too many. My kindness and love has been taken advantage of day in and day out by those whom I loved more than life itself. I have trust issues and I apologize if I can’t give you the same trust that you’d have for me. I am an independent woman and depend on no one for my happiness. All I ask is for you to guide me a bit so I can become as resilient as I used to.
I can be a handful sometimes; I throw tantrums when I don’t get what I want. I get ecstatic and wild when I get my way. I cry when someone I love doesn’t value my feelings. I get beyond angry when someone does me wrong. I am a daddy’s girl and he has treated me like a princess. I hope you can come close to that. I don’t need you to shower me with gifts; I need you to spoil me with your unconditional love and cherished time. I just want to make memories.
I want to travel the world with you and become your best friend. I want to feel alive with you and do things I never intended on even attempting. I want to learn to be an adult with you but also have picnics at the park with you. I want us to play football with our son or dance with our daughter. Maybe even play football with our daughter and dance it out with our son. Whatever the case might be, I just want to do it with you.
I may come off as sassy and rude, but my heart is huge and I care about others way more than I should. I just want you to love the imperfect me, the confused me, the wrong me, because that’s what you’re suppose to do. Please help me understand that true love exists in the cruel world & help me fall in love with you.
You deserve to be happy, you deserved to be loved; if you give me time, I know I can be the reason behind your smiles.
So many times people have told me they would be there for me when I need them, but as soon as things start to fall apart, they sprint the opposite direction. Please walk with me through the toughest situations and I will hold on to you like my life depends on it. i will rely on your strength for the rest of eternity.
Everybody has a chapter they cant read out loud and I have one with a lot of baggage. But I also know that I can get over my past and start appreciating you. I will come to realize that you are my angel born without wings. I want to love you & I know I can. I just need your help.
As they say, when a woman is loved correctly, she becomes ten times the woman she was before.
