To the boy who said he would never do something like that to me... you did it.

I sit here broken as I saw you through a screen tell me "you can't do this anymore" did you try.. no. I sit here questioning what I did wrong as I scan through the times you told me "I would never hurt you" and here I am.. hurt.. wondering. how can someone lie to you like that? how can someone tell you not to worry about being hurt and then they do it to you? I put my guard up to you but you told me not to worry so I let it down and here I am, hurt and confused. I told you I don't say "I love you" easily because every person I have said that to left. I sat there and said that to you and told you I loved you and you told me not to worry. I sit here now regretting that. I sit here wondering if you feel any pain. If you feel lost without hearing from me. If you feel like a part of you left. I sit here and wonder how you're doing as I pretend like I'm doing fine.

Don't tell me you weren't going to hurt me when you did. Don't tell me you wouldn't be like everyone else when that's exactly what you are. Don't tell me you'll always love me when people don't treat the ones they love like the don't matter anymore. Don't tell me you tried when things got tough and you gave up. Don't pretend like you weren't going to hurt me.

I was the one girl that was going to be different to you and the one girl you could let into your life for an extended period of time, but our time was cut short because of you. I appreciate everything you have done for me though, you were amazing to me but you gave up on me. But just because you gave up on me, only means I'm going to work harder to not give up on myself.

Love always,

the girl who trusted you