Okay, so this may seem like a rant to some people, but that isn’t what this is at all. Maybe it is a little, but mostly, it’s just honesty. I turned 21 two weeks ago, and honestly, nothing has been the same since. I’m not one of those people who talks about how much their lives change after every birthday, but honestly, my life really has felt different lately. Oftentimes, I don’t feel connected to people younger than me anymore. The wild party culture at school just doesn’t feel fun anymore. I went to a college party this past weekend and I just kept thinking about how dumb it all was and how I would rather be home with my dog than staring at a bunch of young kids falling all over themselves to hook up with someone. My life is quieter these days. There is just so much more to life than who’s hooking up with who and who got the most wasted last weekend and all of that other crap. I’ve also been struggling with mortality because I’m realizing that as I get older, so does the rest of my family. My mom is the only person who truly knows me in this whole world and lately, I have been thinking about what it would be like without her and honestly, I see no point to it. It’s scary too because being an English major, I don’t get a lot of encouragement from people around me. People often look at my major as the easy way out, and I worry I won’t know what to do with my life after I graduate. I love being 21, don’t get me wrong, but I haven’t even gone to the bars yet because I’m too busy being an old lady. I guess I’m just changing, but I have never been one to love change.