I have a confession to make. A confession that defies the allure of my Instagram page and the phone calls home. A confession that makes me cringe and wish it wasn't true... I don't like college.

Maybe "don't like" is an overstatement, but I am frustrated.

I am frustrated that I am forced to take two years worth of courses and spend $40,000 studying courses irrelevant to my interests and to my future.

I am frustrated that my professors are not helpful and not understanding.

I am frustrated that I can study for hours on end and still fail a test.

I am frustrated that I have no time to myself.

I am frustrated that I can’t see my friends and my family.

I am frustrated that I get five hours of sleep a night.

I am frustrated that I can’t go to the gym because I am too busy with pointless school work as mentioned above and clubs that fill every second of my life.

College is the best but also the worst thing that has happened to me. Some days I say to myself how much easier and happier I could be if I was participating in a gap year, or living somewhere new, just working and learning about life, rather than derivatives. I crave a break from this hectic and stressful environment. But the reality is... I actually love college.

I love the people I have met.

I love that I have discovered what I want to do.

I love that I have the freedom to express my passions.

I love that I am independent.

I love that I have so many resources available to me.

I love that I am surrounded by so many intelligent and motivated people.

I love that I can walk anywhere I want to go.

I love that I know that the future will be better with the courses I take.

More than anything, I love knowing my struggles are temporary.

In life, especially in college, it is so easy to become overwhelmed with deadlines you can’t meet, tests you don’t understand, and papers you don’t want to write. Sometimes you have to give yourself a moment to breathe and remember that although these early stages of pointless courses are frustrating, they are building your work ethic for when it matters. Even though you’re buying an expensive amount of unneeded education, that money is going towards your future. Even though you feel as if there is no time, there will be soon. You have to push through.

When you walk across that stage, land your first real job, move across the country or even the world, that is what will make it worth it.