Living with anxiety and depression is difficult.
It makes normal tasks like driving, taking care of loved ones, or even going to school more exhausting.
Loving, though, that takes the life out of you every day.
It’s a long and tiresome road, dealing with the constant worries and “what ifs”.
Think of loving with anxiety like a weight, that is strapped around your relationship.
It takes so much energy just to move on bit, just to make step towards deeper love.
It says, they’re too good for you and they can do so much better.
That voice inside your head saying you’re not making them happy enough.
This is how I love differently.
I ask you if you love me, not once, not twice but multiple times a day.
Not because you don’t’ say it enough, it’s because that voice in my head is constantly telling me you don’t.
I want to see you every day, not for long, but every day.
Not because I don’t trust you, but because that weight, weighs down harder every time you’re away.
I text you constantly throughout the day, asking how you are and what you’re doing.
Not because I want to annoy you, but because my mind is playing tricks on me.
Making me think and doubt everything I already know about you.
I love differently because my anxiety and depression are constantly kicking at me.
Putting more and more weights on me and the relationship we share.
I know you love me, and I love you to no end, but every second that voice is telling me otherwise.
Be patient, be kind and always be understanding.
Loving someone with anxiety and depression can be draining and time-consuming.
Though, in the end, our love is ten times deeper, are hearts are one hundred times bigger and our relationship will be a thousand times stronger.