An Honest Poem: Fragments | The Odyssey Online
Start writing a post
Student Life

An Honest Poem: Fragments

Trying my own hand at poetry.

56
An Honest Poem: Fragments
Nicole Steiner

I wrote this poem in light of a performed poetry piece I heard by Rudy Francisco, called “My Honest Poem.” I liked the bare bones of its naked-truth-ness. I haven’t much tried my own hand at poetry before, (I’m used to novels and explaining something I can’t quite say clearly 3 times over), But there’s something to be said for brevity, and frankness, even if all the parts don’t connect.

Fragments

At 6,000 feet altitude, I was born a sick baby.

My mother left, prayed, and returned – a 3 step cure

but I suspect that something about being human keeps us all unsettled, unwell

day one, and thereafter.


I stopped taking naps at age one and a half and I’ve slept poorly ever since--

I want to be here, awake, turning the world over in my hands.


I still write my Q’s with the tail on backwards,

and if you tell me a pun I’ll respond with a knee-jerk smile.

Words were my first and finest love,

and in my free time, I like to think of two syllable words my heart might be beating to.


I believe

cool socks complete any running outfit even if it makes the colors clash,

one should always check what state is on the back of their quarters,

and no one should ever go a night without wearing their retainers.

Even so, my teeth are slightly crooked.


Hi, my name’s Nicole.

I’m an introvert but I will blossom if you water me with intentional time and thoughtful questions.

But sometimes I’m scared I’ll run out of willing strangers.


I believe

Each person harbors meanings

that are not meant to be said in lines – not static ones, anyway.

Emotion is a motion, a being moved

This is what words are, have been, to me.


When I get nervous I feel adrenaline in my thighs,

I’ve never watched a scary movie,

I get lost everywhere I go,

And I’ve spent too much time with boys who won’t hold my hand.


I have been in love twice in my life.

There is too much more to say on the matter to say anything more here, or now.


But if I fall in love with you I will write about you.

The entries will be like flowers, firmly pressed between pages.

I want to preserve beautiful things, but my grip often strangles them, these days –

I am still unlearning fear

and dismantling regret.


Yes, my name’s Nicole.

I was born with blue eyes and black hair

which naturally turned to green and blonde (respectively, at least)

but sometimes I’m afraid that I have too much in common with a chameleon.


But I still believe

That we all need to grow and change

sometimes beyond recognition,

shedding old selves like overcoats from our shoulders.


And yet I also believe

That we’re always the same, same, same

just as our skin renews, but our neurons refuse to.


These are my fragments.

And I am still learning the difference between having, doing and being

Just as I am still learning what the w is

that makes the difference between hole, and whole;

And I am still learning how to leave healthy spaces where they are needed

Just as ‘a part’ does, and ‘apart’ does not.


And I am still learning

My hand deserves to be held

And maybe my Q’s don’t have to be written the same way as everyone else’s.

Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.
Adulting

18 Things I Want To Do Now That I'm 18

I'm technically an adult, so I'm legally required to live a little, right?

661
Happy Birthday Cake

For the entirety of my high school career, I was always seen as the goody-two-shoes. I never got in trouble with a teacher, I kept stellar grades, and when I wasn't doing extracurricular activities, I was at home studying. Even when I did go out, it was usually with a bunch of fellow band geeks. The night would end before 11:00 PM and the only controversial activity would be a fight based on who unfairly won a round of Apples-to-Apples when someone else clearly had a better card (I promise I'm not still holding a grudge).

Now that I'm officially an adult, I want to pursue some new things. I want to experience life in a way that I never allowed myself to do prior to entering college. These are the years that I'm supposed to embark on a journey of self-discovery, so what better way to do that than to create a bucket list?

Keep Reading...Show less
Featured

10 Life Lessons from Christmas Classics

The holiday classics that shaped my life

424
10 Life Lessons from Christmas Classics
Flickr

The holiday season is full of stress, debt, and forced conversation. While we rush through the month of December, it's important to take a step back and enjoy the moments before they're gone. Most families love to watch Christmas movies, but these beloved films provide more than entertainment. Here are 10 life lessons that I've learned from the holiday classics we watch every year.

Keep Reading...Show less
Featured

15 Mind-Bending Riddles

Hopefully they will make you laugh.

199419
 Ilistrated image of the planet and images of questions
StableDiffusion

I've been super busy lately with school work, studying, etc. Besides the fact that I do nothing but AP chemistry and AP economics, I constantly think of stupid questions that are almost impossible to answer. So, maybe you could answer them for me, and if not then we can both wonder what the answers to these 15 questions could be.

Keep Reading...Show less
Entertainment

Most Epic Aurora Borealis Photos: October 2024

As if May wasn't enough, a truly spectacular Northern Lights show lit up the sky on Oct. 10, 2024

20403
stunning aurora borealis display over a forest of trees and lake
StableDiffusion

From sea to shining sea, the United States was uniquely positioned for an incredible Aurora Borealis display on Thursday, Oct. 10, 2024, going into Friday, Oct. 11.

It was the second time this year after an historic geomagnetic storm in May 2024. Those Northern Lights were visible in Europe and North America, just like this latest rendition.

Keep Reading...Show less
 silhouette of a woman on the beach at sunrise
StableDiffusion

Content warning: This article contains descriptions of suicide/suicidal thoughts.

When you are feeling down, please know that there are many reasons to keep living.

Keep Reading...Show less

Subscribe to Our Newsletter

Facebook Comments