I do not regret the life I lived here because this was my home for eighteen years, but I do wish to no longer be associated with this town. I love some of the people here, my closest friends and my family, but I do not understand the majority of the residents. Everyone knows everything about anyone in this town, and until I left for school, this was all I have known, but then I left.
Leaving was like a breath of fresh air.I felt as if this was the first day of my life, and in a way it was. See because the only world I had known was my childhood in The Region, I did not realize how little everyone everywhere else knew about me. I have never experienced something as refreshing as knowing I was nobody. My name did not roll off the tongues of people's mouths. To everyone else, I was just another body taking up space, and for the first time, I was okay with that.
Being a nobody helped me become a somebody. There was no background knowledge of me these people knew, and if I wanted to, I could have told them the only good things about, but I didn't. I still opened myself to people who barely knew me because I needed my peers to understand my struggles to believe in my successes, and that wasn't something that could've happened at home.
The life I lived at home those 18 years were filled with obstacles. The people at home have seen those obstacles, and my struggle to overcome them. In a way, those same people lost hope in my successes. No hope is equivalent to no support, and everyone needs a little support to fall back on.
Even without the courage this town had failed to give me, I still did something with my almost nothings, and this town had been there to witness the ending of the nothings. Though I do not wish to be here anymore, I still am for now, and this town will still be here too.
One day I will be able to bring someone I love back here, and they, as well as the rest of the world, will be able to see where it all began.