I wrap myself in a blanket.
The warm embrace reminds me of countless hugs.
If I close my eyes I can see your face.
I can strain my ears to hear your laughter.
I can pretend you’re still with me, if only for a minute
But once my eyes open the reality drops like sand bags on my chest.
I’m drowning.
I wish I could say my heart aches but numbness is what follows me.
A void inside my being, like a hollow tree.
I stand tall yet inside I’m nothing but shattered pieces of who I used to be.
They don’t tell you that loss will consume you.
They don’t warn you, for a warning would only pale in comparison to the way my heart shattered when you left.
The blanket is removed from my shoulders.
The cold is like a slap to the face.
Ripping off the bandaid, the pain they say is only temporary.
But what about the hollowness inside my soul?
Will that fade away?