The Holidays are always harder when you know that someone special is missing. It feels like there is a gap where you should be, an empty chair. I catch myself reflecting on this time last year, never dreaming you would be gone.

Thanksgiving came and went, but you weren't there to wrap me in a warm hug. There were a little bit more leftovers to put away because your plate wasn't made too. I looked all over hoping you would walk through the door, but that time never came. Even after all of this time it doesn't feel like you're really gone.

Now, Christmas is around the corner and I won't be putting a gift under the tree for you. I don't get to put up the decorations and watch 25 Days of Christmas with you. I'll hang a stocking up for you, and place an ornament of the tree in memory of you but it will never feel the same. Christmas was always one of your favorites and it hurts to know you're be missing it this year.

Soon after Christmas the New Year will be upon us and I won't be ringing it in with you. There will be one less glass of sparkling juice, one less toast. This next year will completely different without here to love and guide me, but I'll be strong for you.

The Holidays are different with you here, but I'll make sure to carry your traditions throughout the years. This next year I'll strive to make you proud and carry your memory with me everyday. I love you and wish we had just one more year together, one more set of holidays. Until then, watch over all of us from your special place in the sky. We'll be missing you.