To the guy who broke me vs. the guy who fixed me

You two are friends, one broke me and the other picked up the pieces. I never thought I would fall for two guys who are friends, but oh I did.

You treated me so well at first. You flirted with me you kissed me, you showed me off. Then you became standoffish, I was confused. You began to hurt me slowly, break me down ever so slightly. You hurt me in your sleep, I did not blame you for putting me in a chokehold, its normal to have nightmares, I thought. I slowly became scared of you, but I was in love with you. I did not care if you joked around until you actually hurt me, I did not care that you called me crazy or a bitch, I did not care that you pretended to stab me with your knife. I did not care. You were the one for me. All the red flags did not seem red to me. You slowly broke me down, scaring my heart with every move you made. You loved me I thought. This is your way of affection. Anger. Drinking. Mean “jokes”. You loved to make fun of me. It slowly broke me down. Chipping away at my confidence. Until one day, I broke. You broke me. All the good I had in me, was torn away. I thought it was my fault. I realize now, it was yours. You have problem. Problems that I cannot fix. Problems that only you can solve.

I was broken and it scared me to think I never will be the same again. Until I met you, I was sad and lonely and scared of falling in love again. I was scared you would hurt me, psychically and emotionally. I was sad to think that you could possibly hurt me in any way. But it changed, ever so slowly, you earned my trust, instead of putting me in a choke hold, you rubbed my back and kissed my head, you are so loving. You make sure I’m okay at all times. You do not make mean jokes towards me, you do not call me crazy. You do not get angry, you make me smile instead of making me cower. You make me laugh instead of cry. You make it feel easy to love someone again. The way you look at me, makes me feel like I’m a million dollars. You are slowly but surely putting my pieces back together. You love me the way everyone should be loved.