High school was pretty sucky when I went. Even Jr. High because no one really liked me. Sure I had friends but there were some who were my friends and some who weren’t. And those type of people didn’t like me because they wanted to be followed, and wanted to boss people around. But also made fun of me for my looks because I wore glasses, my teeth weren't straight and weren’t that white. Then again no one’s teeth are that perfect except those who could afford it like celebrities and rich families. They even made fun of my forehead and made jokes about how I cut my stomach so I can get my period. See, if I kept cutting my stomach just to get my period, I probably would’ve been dead for seven years now. Throughout my entire life I witness adults, young adults, and high school students act immature and petty. All I hear is how once you’re done with high school all the drama would be over but that’s a damn lie. Jr. high was hell for me. I would always get made fun of for my looks even by my own teammates and the guys from the baseball team from the baseball/softball program I went to. No one really wanted me there obviously because they would always talk about me behind my back and make me feel like I wasn’t pretty on the outside. Which is why I struggle with how I look. I feel that I need to wear makeup just to feel beautiful and better thinking I would be what every male is looking for in a female. Then when I was in high school I still felt unattractive especially because during my senior year no one asked me to be their prom date and I even wore a princess dress for what? But anyway high school as worse too because there was unnecessary drama for no reason what so ever. Every corner that you turned and every single day there was always drama. Getting picked at by people who think they have so much power to knock you down, thinking that they’re better than you because they’re prettier and they’re better than you at other things. Which I hate!!!! It’s literally annoying. Like legit annoying. People irk my soul too much because they look at you as if they want you to be intimidated by them which happens in college and pretty much everywhere you go. I had went to this church since I was a baby and it was like a home to me in a way especially because everyone who had went there I’ve known my whole entire life. I miss going there but at the same I don’t because my uncle’s ex wife family who is the sister of my godmother have been starting drama with my family for a long time now. I mean my god mother doesn't really mean much to me because all she wanted was the title not the responsibility of being a godparent. But my question is why? Why start drama and have all these problems with us in church? Not just in church but everywhere we go. What's the whole point? To prove that you're much tougher than that person? Much better than them because you're popular? Because your features might look better than them? Not caring or understanding that your attitude is the ugliest thing since you think you're so much better than everyone on this corrupted sick planet? But then again I prove my point. Her and her family are like high school students because all they do is act petty and try to start fights with us but also rub in our faces that their lives are better than ours…which is not. It’s literally sad especially when the people who judge and gossips the most are the ones who go to church praising the lord asking for forgiveness or for help. It goes towards the people who do that because they're cowards. Just realizing that no matter where you go there will always be drama even if you avoid it because people will still have that same mentality of a high school student since they are cowards, since they love to fight, since they like to get under people’s skin just like Donald Trump but always have to remember that in the long run, someday somehow they will suffer but for now I think that high school isn’t over yet for some people who don’t know how to keep quiet and be the bigger person. Not knowing when to grow up which is why thee is always drama but hopefully one day those people will understand. Just like Hayley Williams sang "Some of us have to grow up sometimes" from her band's album "Now". which is really catchy but great and we all can relate well some of us who are mature.
