"Yeah losing them wouldn't be so hard to take, if heaven wasn't so far"

If heaven wasn't so far away, if I could call you up and tell you about my day I would call every chance I had. I'd call you on my walks back from class, when I had a story I knew you'd laugh at, when I needed advice and you would know just what to say, when I wanted to complain about that hard paper or annoying professor, when I had a bad day, and when I got an A on that exam I studied so hard for.

If heaven wasn't so far away, you could have come back to celebrate major milestones and give that loving hug and tell me you were proud of me one more time. So many moments i wish you were here to see, to see me finally pick a college, go to prom, graduate high school, and pack up and move away. I could see you laughing as I tried to unload all those random things I brought to college and struggled to raise my bed because I just needed the extra storage. If heaven wasn't so far away, we wouldn't be wondering if you could see all those moments we desperately want to share with you.

I am so thankful every day for I shared with you, but I wish so often you could be here, for our weekly coffee dates and long chats. For all those days you picked me up from school and spoiled me endlessly and all those summers you sat and watched us swim for hours. I think everyone would give up everything to just have one more day. To be able to pack up the cars and check out heaven for the day, to hear your laugh one more time, and to see you one more time.

If heaven wasn’t so far away, your final goodbye wouldn’t have hurt so bad, your absence wouldn’t be felt so often, and your memories wouldn’t have to be constantly replayed. If heaven wasn’t so far away our weekly visits would be enough and the distance wouldn’t feel so far.

Hope heaven treats you great and you can see what is happening in my life every day. Thank you for being my guardian angel, for watching over me, and keeping me out of trouble (even from skies away). Hope you catch all the balloons we send you and know our love for you stretches from here to heaven.

Rest easy, angel.