Having friends can be hard. Going to a small school with tons of really solid people can be great. You have the opportunity to know so many different people and if you're like me, you want to get to know EVERYONE. 2 Years Ago, some of the advice I was told before I entered into college was not to stretch myself too thin. I'm not going to lie, perhaps I have. I'm doing a lot. And I love getting to work and be apart of so many different things. But with doing so many different things, come a lot more friendships. And not that there's a problem with a lot of friends, but it becomes a problem when none of these friendships lack depth.
That's where I'm at right now. I have no strong friendships. Unfortunately, this is something I brought on myself. I've pushed people away to make space for others. To my friends that feel that I've pushed them away, I'm sorry. To my new friends who feel that I haven't put any real time into your life, I'm also sorry.
So, what now? Well, to begin, know that I'm not going to just let anyone go to make time for strong friendships. That would actually be the opposite of what I want to do. I can't be best friends with everyone, but I want to everyone to know that they're loved. Loved by the Lord, and loved by me, to the best of my ability. That's the least I want to do. But most importantly, I want to let everyone know that I do and will continue to struggle with letting people into my life. But I seriously need you in my life and Thanks for being in my life.
