This past week, I lost a very close family friend. He was such a wonderful human being and now knowing how he passed is something that has rocked me to my core.

I believe that everyone on this Earth knows that feeling of having no clarification what so ever. I guess I'm one of those people that lives off of clarity and can't go on without knowing all of the aspects.

I also believe that sometimes, not knowing can also be a good thing. Maybe we don't know because we're not ready to know yet. Our hearts can't take it right then and there.

I have always struggled with having peace. Growing up, I always felt the need to finish everything the way that I wanted and planned it to. When something would happen and it would interfere with those plans, something inside me would become so uncertain or uneasy. It would rock me to my core knowing that after everything I did or after everything that I thought I knew, it wouldn't have happened the way that I wanted anyways.

I know what you're thinking though, what does this have to do with my friend passing? My friend grew up going down a rough path. He made bad choices and chose to go down this road that we all hoped he wouldn't. It wasn't until later he made a complete 360. He completely changed his ways and was doing so good. That's what breaks my heart the most. He was doing so good and all of that was taken away in a course of 2 minutes.

Attaining that peace is not just something you can do but it's something that takes time. To me, it's accepting that somethings are just going to be the way that they are. Doing just that, it takes time.

There will be a day when you wake up and this over whelming sense of peace washes over you and that day is going to be a good day. Just wait it out because I promise, that day will be a good day.

Much Love Always. -Addison.