Having a best friend who lives thousands of miles away on a completely different continent in a completely different country than you do can be really hard sometimes.

You’re so used to going to them for everything and seeing them all the time that it becomes difficult. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve turned around, expecting them to be there so I can tell them all about my crazy day or the cute boy I saw or even just rant to them about life’s struggles.

It’s hard to find that kind of relationship all over again.

When you find someone who knows you so well, forwards and backwards, that you don’t even have to say a word for them to know exactly how you’re feeling. That kind of best friend is hard to leave behind.

My dear I miss the nights when we’d stay up way too late laughing our heads off because of the dumbest YouTube videos or crying together and having heart to heart moments. You never fail to cheer me up or pull me out of some of my lowest moments. I still read those letters you gave me for my birthday and all of those random affirmation notes because you knew I was having a hard week, day, or even just a moment. You’ve constantly been there for me even though we’re miles and miles apart, even when it comes down to texts that are sent hours apart (#timezoneproblems), millions of snapchats to wake up to, and FaceTime sessions that are super glitchy and hard to understand but still manage to make me smile.

I love how we talk about the future together, what our lives will look like in five, ten, twenty years. Where we want to end up and what we’ll do with our lives. How we’ll have our kids grow up together to become best friends so we can hang out together. Fangirling over each other’s Pinterest boards about our weddings (then getting distracted by cute animal boards). It is during those moments that I feel most at peace, because we’re so comfortable around one another that we can bring up anything and find common ground with one another, explain our thoughts, and be truly understood. I miss those moments.

Every week we try our best catch each other up on what’s the latest in our lives, both highs and lows. We laugh, we cry, we connect, we pray for one another. I can’t even begin to explain to you though, how hard it is to miss those moments in their lives. To miss out on the times they needed you most, to miss out on the new milestones and the old traditions. It breaks my heart that I can’t be there in person.

But I know it’s for the best. I know God is going to grow both you and me during these monumental years of our lives. Our bond in Christ, together, is so strong that no matter what you’ll always have a special place in my heart. I know God is going to use you in such big ways and you are going to do SO much good for the kingdom.

I miss you. I love you.