Girls my age are dreaming about being back in their hometown after college, or snuggling up with their significant other, getting married and having children. They're dreaming about their jobs, their families, and their weddings. I on the other hand, I’m dreaming about trying out different jobs, I’m dreaming about traveling, and traveling a lot. I’m dreaming about seeing the world, living in different places, and meeting as many beautiful souls as I can. I’m dreaming about being out of my comfort zone, and being completely vulnerable and seeing what happens to me. I’m dreaming about making my family proud while doing things I want to do, not things they expect me to do. I dream about making a change, a significant change. I dream about saving a life, and writing a book or two.Of course I’m thinking about having a husband and maybe some children but I know I don't want that until I’m completely happy with myself and my own life.
I feel selfish thinking like this sometimes. I feel like as a 20 year old woman I should be yearning for children and for the “American Dream,” but that dream is honestly unattractive to me… It’s not my dream, and that’s okay. I’ve led a pretty typical life thus far, yes, I’ve done things that others haven’t, but then again, they’ve done things that I haven’t. I want to experience more and I want to experience that “more” in a unique way. I want to leave a legacy.
I was unhappy for a while, and I lost myself for a couple years. But right now, I am genuinely happy and okay with my life and my surroundings, but you know what? I want to be even happier. I want to experience happiness in new and exciting ways. I’m so young, and I still will be when I graduate college, and I deserve to make these years some of my best, whether it’s in a conventional way or not.
I’m so excited to see where life takes me. I know no matter what that I have people who love me, an amazing family who will be there the second I need them, and most importantly I have a good head on my shoulders. There will always be bumps in the road that will set me back and that’s okay, and my plan may be different from most, and that’s okay too. Deep down I know, that no matter what I decide to do with my future I know I’m going to be okay.
