I don’t really know how to explain my situation and I can’t really change it either. It’s hard for me to be okay especially when no one understands. People keep asking me what’s wrong and I don’t know what to tell them. I say nothing and then someone will get mad at me for having an attitude.

I’m sorry, somedays I’m a little extra irritable.

I’m sorry, I get tired of hearing that same question all the time.

I’m sorry, I don’t always know what’s wrong with me.

I’m sorry, I just feel off

Somedays I don’t want to be around anyone. I try to push away the ones who mean the most to me. I try to avoid almost everyone because no one understands and I don’t want to pull anyone into my problems.

I’m sorry for trying to push you away.

I’m sorry for avoiding the ones who genuinely care about me.

I’m sorry for anytime my problems have affected you.

I’m sorry for just wanting someone who understands me

I’m sorry…

I can’t help who I am and I can’t just go back to being “normal.” I feel alone and I feel lost, I want to just walk away from it all until I’m myself again. I find myself questioning my entire life and everything I stand for.

I’m sorry because I know I’m a mess

I’m sorry that I’ll never be normal

I’m sorry that I live in the world of the lost and forgotten

You see me smiling like nothing was ever wrong. I hide behind a lot, scared to lose it all. You wonder how I can stay so strong but I don’t really have a choice.

I know you see me falling

You see it because you care

And I love you for that

But you need to know that I’m never going to be okay

Sorry but this is my life