For all my Harry Styles fangirls out there.
1. August 2017 — Optimistic
My 20th birthday is this month. What do 20-year-old girls typically want as gifts? Lululemon, Adidas shoes, or perhaps a camera. Me? I wanted Harry Styles' concert tickets. After 7 years of not only being a 1D fan but a "Harry girl", a Harry Styles solo tour was a dream come true… I only have to wait 10 months for the concert.
2. June 2018 — Eager
After the longest 10 (!!!) months of my life, the countdown to the concert begins. I cannot believe it is finally June. I can see the concert venue from my office and it just feels like a tease. I wonder what my thoughts will be when I'm looking out this window the day after the concert.
3. The Day Before The Concert — Panicked
I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO WEAR. Less than 24 hours till I see a demigod and I have not picked out my outfit. I feel so unprepared. I've been waiting for this day for so long, but I am shocked now that it is here.
4. The Morning Of The Concert — Energized
No need for coffee because today is the DAY! I've got a pep in my step and there's not a THING that can bring my mood down. I'm whistling at work and holding doors for strangers and treating people with KINDNESS is the honor of the motto of sweet angel Harry.
5. The Afternoon Of The Concert — Impatient
How many hours are between me and the love of my life? Too many. That's how many. I am sitting at my desk tapping my foot as I have been doing the entire afternoon. My mood kind of tanked after lunch due to impatience. This suspense is killing me.
6. The Evening Of The Concert — Content
I go through the VIP check-in line and get my keepsake bag. It has a CD and lanyard and other cute things. Meeting Harry would have been cuter. I wait in line to get my t-shirt. I'm going to wear it every day from now on. I've passed all the time I can, so I go find my seat.
7. 30 Minutes Till Showtime — Surprised
When I get to my seat on the floor of the venue find that I am sitting right next to what looks like a barricaded aisle. This can only mean one thing: I'm going to touch Harry Styles. I make friends with the security guard manning the barricade. He tells me that I was correct. Harry was going to run down the aisle during the eighth song. Oh, My GOD!!!!
8. Showtime — Anxious
The Opening Act entertained me for a while. Harry chose a country artist. I'm surprised, but also wonder if he's picking on us Texans? I have plenty of time to wonder this as I watch a replay of a video of Harry trying to solve a Rubix cube. I think I could have solved it myself by now!!!
9. 9:15 pm — Thrilled
The Rubix cube FINALLY solved itself. The lights just went out. And the energy is CONTAGIOUS. I feel like I just shotgunned a Red Bull. The screens are lifting and there is a lone figure standing behind a mic stand in a pink tailored suit. It's Harry FREAKING Styles.
10. 9:30 pm — Surreal
AHHHH!!!! Oh my GOD!!!!!! OMG. OMG. OMG. AHHHHH!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!! HARRY!!!!!!! OMG. OMG. OH MY GOD!!!! AHHH!!!!!!!!!
11. 9:45 pm — Grateful
Harry is shortly about to walk down the aisle past where I am standing. What did I do to deserve a blessing like this?? How did I end up with this aisle seat? I am determined this was an act of God. He intervened in the best interests of my happiness.
12. 10:00 pm — Enchanted
HARRY STYLES IS A FEW FEET FROM ME. HE IS WALKING TOWARDS ME. HE IS IN FRONT OF MY FACE OH MY FREAKING GOD. HE JUST FIST BUMPED THE SECURITY GUARD THAT I'M TOUCHING ELBOWS WITH. HE LOOKED AT ME. EYE CONTACT. EYE CONTACT!!!!!
13. 10:15 pm — Infatuated
I think my jaw is still dropped and there are five sure tears still in my eyes. He is now singing my favorite song off the final One Direction album. I think my heart is going to burst. I am in LOVE and I don't CARE who knows it.
14. 10:30 pm — Proud
I am watching Harry dance around on the main stage and recording him with my phone. I can not help but be proud. The last time I was in this venue I was watching One Direction and now Harry sold out the entire venue as a SOLO ARTIST. Incredible. Just incredible.
15. 10:45 pm — Bittersweet
He's playing the last song. I am feeling that indescribable state of emotion in which you are the happiest you have ever been but could also cry because it's about to be over… Have you ever felt that way?? Tell me I'm not crazy. Except for Harry Styles.
16. 11:00 pm — Shook
What. A. Concert. What a night!!! I am sitting in traffic in a parking lot bopping to some throwback One Direction. And I have never been more content. I am also bouncing off the walls. I do not think I will ever come down from the high that is Harry Styles live.
17. Midnight — Blissful
Laying down to go to sleep and I am convinced at this moment in time that everything is right in the world. How could it possibly not be right now with how full my heart is?
I love you, Harry Styles.
