Dear Grandma,
I'm just stopping by to say I miss you. It's been nearly two weeks since I lost you, and it feels like it was just yesterday. I still can't comprehend the fact that just a week before you passed away, we were eating pickles and sandwiches with Aunt Re and watching family feud, it was our normal Saturday routine.
I've been in a state of shock for the past two weeks, it just doesn't feel real to me. I feel lost on Saturday's, I keep myself busy but I usually just end up in bed watching Netflix and wanting to be left alone.
I'm thankful for all the memories we have made these past 19, almost 20 years. I loved going to your house every Saturday with Aunt Re while I'm up at college. I loved going to your house when I was little too, I loved having sleepovers with you and grandpa. I loved the time when you took me to the American Girl store in New York when I was in the 3rd grade. It was the best day I ever had in elementary school, I loved everything we did that day. I still remember how good my pink lemonade was that I had for lunch.
I'm very thankful that you were able to see one grandchild graduate high school and start college, and I'm thankful that, that grandchild was me. I absolutely hate that you won't see the rest of your grandkids graduate, I hate that you won't see us marry, I hate that you won't be able to see your great grandkids, I hate that you're gone.
I hate that I couldn't say goodbye to you. I hate that I had to say goodbye to an urn.
I'll remember you by your pink heart necklace I adored as a kid, that you gave me last year. I'll remember you by eating homemade meatballs from your recipe. I'll remember you by eating Farmers Garden by Vlasic Bread & Butter Pickle Chips... Our favorite pickles. I'll remember you every time I eat something with soy sauce packets, I'm weird like you and will only eat soy sauce if it's out of the packet, it tastes weird otherwise. I'll remember you every time I see Family Feud on tv. I'll remember you during the holidays, and my birthday.
I'm happy that you and grandpa are together again, I'm happy that the both of you are watching over all of us.. together. I'm happy that you're at piece, I'm happy that you're in a better place.
It's going to be a major adjustment not seeing you around the holidays, not getting a birthday call from you, and not seeing you every Saturday. Just know, we're all going to be thinking of you, just like we think about grandpa.
I'll see you in the future, hopefully not anytime soon.
I love you, and I miss you every day.
Love, your only granddaughter,
Katelyn.
