Dear Mama,
You passed away before I was born. You left behind Daddy and the rest of the family. No one expected you to be gone so soon. At least one of my siblings got to enjoy you. I know Dad misses you a lot, even if he doesn't like to show it. As I grown up I've seen pictures of you and I've heard so many stories. I visited you at the cemetery a few times. I'm told to this day that we have similar features. I just want you to know that I miss you and I think about you all the time. I hope you're doing good where you're at. I always wonder what life would be like if you were here. I would've had two grandmas which would've been awesome. Papa and you would still be together. You could've seen how big we all got. I know you know, you're watching us. I just wish you could physically see it.
I cry sometimes because I've always thought that it's unfair I never got to see you. God obviously had other plans for you. I hope one day I finally get to meet you. Even though we have never seen you, I love you so much. You are part of me. You are part of the reason I'm here in the first place. I consider you my guardian angel. I hope you don't mind.
I'm sorry I'm not fluent in Spanish yet. I promise one day I will be. I hope you hear me when I talk to you. I know I talk a lot, so it's okay if sometimes you dont listen. I just like keeping you in the loop of things. I'm sorry that I'm not always able to listen to you when you speak to me.
I'm sorry I haven't visited you in awhile. It's not cheap to get to the Dominican Republic. I wish I could send pictures to you. You could see all the pictures from my sweet 16, prom, graduation. I have so many questions for you. Mostly about what it was like for you growing up. I could only imagine what it was like back then. This is messed up but you would be shocked with how crazy this world ended up. Completely different from when you left.
Is it bad that I don't consider you dead, but rather you're just taking a really long vacation and I know I'll see you soon? Heaven really does seem like a vacation, though. No worries, no pain. It must also be hard, though. Anyway, Mama, I miss you and love you more and more as each day goes on. Hope you're well.
Love,
Brianna
