Being stagnant in life was one of the things I feared the most. I knew it was because I was too scared to get out on my own and fail. And in some strange way, I was actually scared to succeed.
But I just knew there had to be more to life than just getting A's in school or just working to make money. There had to be more than what I was used to doing every day.
It was summer 2018 when all of these thoughts ran through my mind, and I finally decided to do something about it.
I sat down and attempted to get myself together.
Throughout the summer, I consistently set small goals for myself just to slowly move to more independence and become more confident in my abilities. I mapped out several different things I could improve on, including my studying habits, the people I chose to let in my life, and even just my overall abilities outside of maintaining a good GPA. It did me some good to actually write things down this time, instead of just saying over and over how bad I wanted my life to change.
Writing down the person I wanted to be kept me more accountable than any friend or foe ever could.
Although I still fade in and out of a comfort zone every now and then, I now know that I can do more than I think. That really made a difference in how I did everything moving forward.
I no longer hold my tongue on things that bother me just because it is easier to be seen than heard. I try new things just because of all the "why not?" reasons in my life. I am no longer scared of the success I am capable; I now seek the challenge and nothing less.
I would say I hope I never fall into my old comfort zone again, but that would be cliché. I will not go back into my comfort zone because there is still so much for me to do, so much to see, and so much life waiting to be lived.
