"The only thing we have to fear is fear itself." ~Franklin Delano Roosevelt.
We all have fears. It does not matter how strong you are or how much of an adrenaline junkie you are, we all fear something. Now that fear could be something physical like clowns, spiders, and snakes, but other fears can be bigger like being afraid of the dark, being lonely, or even the unknowing future. I know a number of people who are afraid of dying because they feel like they will die with nothing to show for in their life. I do agree, that is pretty scary and I can understand why people are afraid of that. Personally I am not that afraid of dying, it is how I am going to die is what I am scared of.
Now I can go on and on about my fears of spiders and clowns, but there is one that hits me hard everyday. It is a fear that many people do not think about and only within the last three or four years it has really hit me hard on a couple of occasions. My biggest fear is saying goodbye. I know it sounds silly, but when you think about it, it is something I believe we all fear.... but then again, it could just be me. I have a good reason though.
I hate goodbyes so much. I try to say "See you later" to people I like instead because I want to see them again. Saying goodbye feels like I will not see them again, and when it is a person I have come to know and have a good friendship with, I do not ever want to let it go. It sounds selfish and needy, but let me ask you this: Have you ever met someone you never wanted to lose contact with? A boy or a girl that could potentially be the one? What about an animal? I have met countless of people I try to stay in contact with because at one point, they impacted my life greatly that I feel like I need them still. Saying goodbye to college might have been the most difficult thing ever because there were so many memories with so many people.
As much as I fear goodbyes, I do have to remember that when saying goodbye hurts so much, I know that I am blessed because it is a constant reminder of how deeply I love. I hurts so much when I have to say goodbye, but when you think about it, it also makes me happy that something like that can hurt so much. That is right, I just kind of quoted South Park if you did not catch it.
We all fear something. Lately I have been fearing the future because I do not know what will happen. However, it still does not come close to saying goodbye to someone close to me. So the next time we see each other and we part ways, I will still say, "See you again," then say "Hello" once reunited.
