Believe me when I say this past week has been poop. It has been poop on a stick and I haven't liked any of it. That's when I was reminded by my Youth Pastor, that even though everything in my life seems to be changing, God's unbelievable love for me never will. He will always love me.

So if anyone is wondering why my week was poop, let's just start with college classes. They suck. I'm so blessed to be able to be here and to be learning and getting my education, but it seems like we came back for second semester and hit the ground running. I don't really like to run, not fast anyways so the feeling of sprinting through my class work, homework and quizzes is emotionally and mentally wearing me down.

Another thing that has been poopy is the fact that someone I care about is like hundreds and hundreds of miles away from me. I read a card the other day that said "Life is a bowl of poop soup when you're gone" or something like that and I was like dang, life is a bowl of poop soup. I miss my person and I'd like him back, but he'll be gone for awhile and I'm not sure when I'll be seeing him again.

A third thing that has been probably the poopiest is the constant updates of a friend's murder and the nasty comments that people make about it. I believe that everyone is good, sometimes people just make bad decisions or get caught up with the wrong crowd. In any case, no one deserves to be killed, no one deserves to have death wished upon them, and no one should have to feel the pain that I know so many of my old friends are feeling.

I was reminded today that God has control. He's got us. He has our backs and He's going to love us through everything. Even if you aren't christian, you should know that you are loved. You should know, as well as I, that school is going to be hard, but you'll make it through. Important people in your life, no matter how far away, are still going to care about you just remember to remind them that you care about them too. And lastly, we should love as God loves. I know it's hard to have a love like His, I don't think I've ever been close, but I'm trying my best to have forgiveness in my heart for the two young men who made the terrible choice to take Jake's life. I apologize if that offends anyone, but love is much stronger than hate and I hope that they realize what they have done and pray for forgiveness themselves.

Even though life can be poop soup, people in your life still love you. My Youth Pastor has been someone who has opened my eyes to forgiveness, to kindness and to God's love. There is only one last thing to leave you with and that's the scripture of Joshua 1:9.

"Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified, do not be discouraged for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you may go."

My Youth Pastor was right, God's love is forever. He's not going anywhere.