This past year my dad has been sick and not getting any better. It has been hard on my mom and I do the best to try to help her. Not knowing that I'm hurting inside too and I forget to take care of myself. My dad has had five surgeries this year on the same knee and it continues to get infected. So bad that he can't walk very well, in and out of the hospital continuesly. Being away at college and not being hear, it' makes it more difficult . My mom says she really appreciates it when i am home. Trying to be strong for everybody, I forget to take care of myself, because deep inside I'm just trying to hang in there.

Why doesn't God hear me when I cry out to him or answer my prayers? Is God really there? Is this the way it's going to be the rest of our lives? I know I am not the only one asking those questions in times of trial. Many people from way back in the Bible asked those questions and so do many people today. I also see God perform many miracles too. It may not be my timing but God's timing is always better then mine.

This Sunday morning at church, our pastor preached about the Christmas story, because it's that time of the year. God didn't choose Mary to carry the savior of the world because she did something great. God chose her because the Lord was with her.

“You are blessed because you believed that the Lord would do what he said.”

‭‭Luke‬ ‭1:45‬ ‭NLT‬‬

We're going to be okay because the Lord is with us. Yes it's another round of surgery and antibiotics. But this process has really strengthened my faith and has taught me how to love more. I always know now that God is with me.