Without God I am lost. I don't feel like I have a purpose. I don't feel that I am good enough for anyone or that anyone is good enough for me. I lose sight of the path I am on and try to create it myself with closed eyes and a wandering mind. I don't know what I am doing in life or where I am going. I encounter these feelings when I begin to stray away from the One who my life should always revolve around.
The most wonderful gift I have ever received is God's endless love for me and the ability I've been given to put him at the forefront of my life.
No matter what is transpiring in life, no matter how people make me feel, no matter how great everything is going, no matter what bad decision I've made, no matter the highs and no matter the lows. I always turn to my faith and the trust I have to the only One who understands every nook and cranny of my being and who accepts me as I am.
Putting God as my focus allows me to shed away the feelings of guilt, loneliness, self-pity and condemnation. I don't feel barred back by the chains of this broken world and I am no longer a prisoner to my own sin. I can be free knowing that all of my troubles here on earth are cast away into a place where I am never allowed to look again.
It's not always easy to stay on the right path. The tools of this broken world; money, emotions and even people we love are so deviously disguised to make us feel like we need more out of the world to have a sense of fulfillment and happiness. We need to have more money to live happily, we need to be with this person to feel loved and we need to find ultimate satisfaction within ourselves to have peace. All of these things are constantly used to taunt us to try and try to reach a level of ultimate satisfaction.
No materialistic thing, no emotion and no person can ever satisfy you the way God can. We may not be able to see him, but being able to feel him at work in my life has always been enough for me to know he's there.
