There is a lot I wish I could say to you, so I figured I'd write it out.

I get angry a lot. There are times where I try to figure out why it had to be you; why out of anyone who had to go away it would be my best friend. There were times where I would get mad at everything; the world, God, even myself. But then I realized, everyone is on a mission. Some people don't need as much time as others to complete theirs.

You were put in this world to teach everyone how to love. If anything, your absence emphasized that. I never knew how negative I was until I tried seeing the world through your eyes. I take those lessons with me every day.

Although you're gone, I feel you with me. Whether it's our song on the radio, your favorite pineapple soda, and peanut butter, or just a warm breeze, I know you're there. Thank you for keeping your presence with me and all those that remember you.

Not a day passes where I don't wish I could tell you about my new friends, that crazy teacher, or even just the boy who winked at me one time. You're the first one I go to for everything, and then I get reminded that you aren't there.

I have a good best friend now. She definitely isn't you, but trust me she knows all about you.

I promise to keep your soul alive as long as you promise to keep looking over me.

I miss you, I love you, rest in peace.