I am here to tell you that there is nothing wrong with not knowing where you are going in life. Sometimes you go through difficult times in your life that make you wonder if you are ever going to make it through. Once you do, you look at yourself, and you have become stronger.
Depending on the challenges you had to face, you lose yourself in overcoming them. You get out of it alive, but you are a little lost. You have lost track of your goals. You have lost track of what is really important. You have neglected those who have always stood by you.
There is a lack of self-awareness that at that point, you have no idea if you are going to get it back or not. You question the world around you because that is what you had to do during your difficult time. At this point, you also have no idea what people have your best interest in mind. You forgot how to trust those you should and learned how to guard yourself in order not to get hurt any more than you have been.
There are so many emotions rolling around in your mind, and you do not know what to do with them. One day you are as happy as can be, and in a flip of a switch, you become a completely different person you do not recognize. You keep asking yourself why this is happening to you. To tell you the truth, I do too. The only explanation that comes to mind is that of what you keep telling yourself. The hurt and pain you went through have only left open wounds that have no timeline of when they will be ready to heal.
At the end of the day, hopefully, you have been taught a lesson through your tough experience. When the day comes and you have completely healed, hopefully, you are able to look at yourself the same way. You deserve the world, and one day you will have it in your hands when you feel confident enough to go out and conquer it.
Once that happens, never again will you see life with the same painful eyes. You will then learn that you are the most amazing person that you can be and nothing can ever change that again.