Hey you, it's me the girl who gets it. I see you trying to be the perfectionist you were in high school. I get that you're trying to make time for everyone and everything in your life. I understand the single tear of frustration that slides down your face when life just isn't working out the way you had planned.
Well babe can I let you in on a little secret? That tear shows so much more strength than you think it does weakness. You're a boss, never forget that, life just has a funny way of making you think the opposite. I just want you to know that you are ok, and everything is going to be ok. I need you to understand that your efforts are not for nothing and that life won't always feel like this.
You should also know that this thing called "balance", doesn't exist. Something or someone will always have to take a backseat to something/one else. I don't know about you, but I'm pretty tired of feeling like a crappy friend/daughter/student/girlfriend because I can't give 150% to everyone in my life.
Some days I can only give 140% or even just 10%, and I'm finally to a point where that's more than ok. My life is crazy, between school, work, friends, family, boyfriend, clubs, responsibilities, I find my head spinning more often than not; but you get it.
So the next time you hear that little voice of perfectionism speak up, do yourself a favor, and shut. it. down. Remember that you only have so many hours in the day and so many tasks you can accomplish. You can't forget about yourself. You have to live with you. And for me, I think I'd rather try and be happy.
So if that means taking 15 units instead of 18, or spending time with my boyfriend instead of girl's night (or vice versa), or even cuddling up in my PJs for a One Tree Hill marathon by myself, then I'm gonna do those things without guilt. Life's too short to be living for someone else.
Oh and love, remember one more thing: You are doing great, ok?